Hello, friends! I am a day late, again, (sorry!) but my life has gone from 0-100 at an exponential rate, and I’m still trying to figure out how I can possibly accomplish all the things I need to finish on time. The recent California fires have finally died out, but my university is still struggling to organize the class schedules, and as a result, the new timetable for final exams is up in the air.
I spent Thanksgiving stressing about this, worrying about the GIANT pile of work (exams, papers, applications, presentations, etc.) that I have to do. But, that didn’t help at all. The problem is that I spent so much time worrying that I didn’t even get a chance to really do what needs to get done.
I feel like having a stressful, busy, hectic life is over-glorified in modern society. If you’re clocking in 70 hours a week, working overtime on the daily, and constantly chugging an espresso or Red Bull, then there’s a sort of societal approval. People say, “oh, you have such a full life”, or they shake their heads and admiringly say, “I wish I could manage it all the way you do”.
Honestly, it’s kinda weird. Stress has been scientifically proven to wreck havoc on your mental and physical health, contributing to a shorter life span and a lower quality of life. And not only that, but constantly being stressed doesn’t actually make you more productive – as I saw this Thanksgiving break, it does quite the opposite.
For me, my stress comes from my unrealistic expectations. Even though I know it’s bad, I want to be successful without having to put too much effort into my commitments. When I inevitably realize that I actually have to work after my dreams, it makes me scared that my labour won’t be enough, and I’ll never achieve my goals. This fear then leads me to procrastinate, and the vicious cycle continues.
The nice thing , though, is that once you recognize this flood of fear and anxiety, it’s pretty simple to end. Right now, I have a healthy and attainable work schedule, and I’m slowly but surely chugging along and checking things off my to-do list. It’s not easy, and I have to work really hard, but at the end of the semester, I know that I’ll be proud of myself.
If you are currently struggling to make it to the end of the year, just relax. Take a breath, drink some water, and do what needs to be done. Trust me, your future self will thank you.
I’m really looking forward to completing everything on my to-do list and finishing the semester off with a bang. But, best of all, in a couple of weeks I’ll be able to take a guilt-free vacation. 🙂